Crowdfunding Emergency: Please HELP Us Get Out (Singapore)

3:04a.m. 19 Dec Tues

Raising funds to save our lives. This is Not a scam. Please e-mail thezinepin@gmail.com to donate.  If need be, we are willing to meet people who offer genuine means of help & would like further details.

If there are ghosts, then there must be God. But where is God? What is God doing to let such things exist & disturb the living?

2:28am. 15 Dec Friday 2017

I fear for our lives. Please help us get away. We can't take it anymore. Every night, this paranormal torment. We ask for help from religions & have gotten none! 

It torments my brother every night. He can't sleep & I can't either.  We don't know what it is, but all evidence points to our father who has gone over to the dark side & is using negative entities to disturb us!

Please help us get away to another country.  A spiritual healer overseas was kind enough to help us as best as he could. But after 2 times, he reached a limit & could do no more. He advised us to get out of the country. Not just to the next town or city, but out of the country. It's that serious.

It is hard asking people for help. But we have to, for the sake of our lives.

Please donate as much as you can. This is not a scam. We are not greedy people. But my brother will go insane if this continues.  It is beyond my knowledge & ability to help him or save us. We don't have money to get out!

Please help!!

I e-mailed 3 churches & they didn't even bother replying. All I asked was for my brother to sleep for 1 or 2 nights under the protection of their church. He has been sleep deprived for so long & I just hoped for some respite for him.  Despite my "Urgent" subject heading, they never replied.  Even if they feared or disbelieved, the least they could do is reply "no". Yet all 3 churches rudely didn't even bother replying! So much for the Christians. Representatives of god behaving in such a manner. A disgrace.

When you are in deep shit, know that these 3 churches will not help you:  Church of Divine Mercy, The Bible Church & Church of St Francis Of Assisi (I sent the e-mail to 3 persons for this one).

In the beginning, I also e-mailed so-called psychic Jenny for help & she rejected.  Instead of helping, she asked a question pertaining to my explanation just to satisfy her curiosity & didn't even bother replying anymore. Rude.

Recently, I even asked the Dalai Lama through his "office" in India for information & help. But no reply. For all his smiling face on the book covers & the talks he gives in Singapore, when you need help, where is he?

Just as some people are more susceptible to colds, my brother is more sensitive & susceptible to this thing than I.  Despite my skeptism & disbelief, I am not spared.  Although I feel the effects to a lesser degree, I have also fallen inexplicably ill to the paranormal disturbance.

It's been 10 months (going back far longer) & whatever it is won't stop.  Day & night, worse at night. We can't hold up for much longer. This constant mental, spiritual & physical onslaught that won't stop.

We have tried all sorts of ways to solve it ourselves. But it has only gotten much worse since it started. We are out of options. Out of time & money.

My brother is in danger when he finally manages to sleep in his room at night.  Both of us are in danger. 

We have no way of controlling this thing or making it go away.  Every night is a repeat of the previous night. My brother yells for it to "Go Away!!" & he can't sleep because of the persistent paranormal coughing fits that he does not actually have.

It sounds crazy but he does not have cough. This entity or ghost gives him unstoppable coughing fits when he lays in bed, depriving him of rest. We call it fake cough because it doesn't behave like a normal cough. In certain situations it completely disappears when a normal cough should have been worse.

Hurling insults & vulgarities at our father's name also clears it up. 

We are out of solutions & I can't help.

Illogical & crazy-looking methods are used to contain or control the effects. But these methods keep failing as the effects keep adapting & changing so that what used to work isn't effective anymore.  The strength of the effects also increases, thwarting every one of the attempts at subduing them.

The methods are also failing more & more with shorter intervals of containment between. And the symptoms change daily. My brother thinks different entities or ghosts are sent to disturb us differently every day.

In the day, our minds fight unnatural headaches & drowsiness wherever we go in the country. At night, the fight continues with my brother not getting any sleep.  We don't even know if we are fighting hallucinations or ghosts or entities.

When we finally sleep, our spirits fight on our behalf. We have no dreams & when we wake, we feel as if we fought a battle that we are unaware of.

If you see how tortured my brother's spirit & body are during sleep, you would understand. We have to get out! The longer we stay here, the worse. 

The tortured sounds his spirit makes as his stomach spasms with the unnatural coughs that attempt to break through his sleep deprivation, is hard to bear.  Something is disturbing his spirit.  It appears his spirit or soul is being tortured & badly disturbed by some invisible thing.

As I watch over him, my tears well up. He has suffered much since childhood. It is not fair for him to suffer such torment when he has done nothing.

Throughout the years, he has had no happiness. Can't even do the hobbies that he loves doing. He has lost all interest in the things he enjoyed doing, jaded, disillusioned & disheartened. Now he fights this thing in despair.

I want my brother to be free. For us to live free from the clutches of this thing.

We are quiet & reserved people, too considerate & respectful of others & too generous. We are not money grabbing people. When people need help, I help. but when I need help, who helps?

What remaining time we have left of our lives, I want us to be free.  It is hard watching my brother fight it alone.

When he wakes, my brother says it could be attempts to take his soul by force while he sleeps & his soul is rejecting & fighting it. Watching him, it seems an internal fight is going on & something seems to want to break through (which is creepy).

Whatever it is, is setting up my brother towards insanity & suicide. It happened to our 7th uncle who for years, endured the mental torture alone until he could stand it no more &  killed himself. This same MO is now being used on my brother.

Good thing I also suffer the effects, otherwise I would think he is crazy.  Two persons cannot both be crazy at the same moment with the effects lifting away at the same moment when some bizarre, apparently nonsensical method is used against it (even if I am not aware of the method being applied at that time.).

Are we crazy? No. In fact, at first, it didn't occur to us that it was a spiritual problem. We lost a lot of money on doctors specializing in their fields & A&E (accident & emergency) ambulances & consultation past midnight. But all the doctors always looked thoughtfully puzzled because our symptoms didn't match anything in their experience &  knowledge. They could only say it wasn't this & wasn't that. To them, we were healthy individuals who shouldn't be experiencing such symptoms.

Do we know what it is? Not exactly.  Seems to be not human but at the same time limited by physical distance.

Do we know who is doing this? Yes. But we don't know what happened & what's going on.  We only know he has gone completely crazy, has gone too far down the dark path & is working with negative entities. We don't know if he's dead or alive.

Does distance matter? Yes. We tested this a few times. As we have no money, we crossed water. But as the distance is still not great enough, we still felt the effects although much reduced for my brother. If we could fly out of the country, I am quite sure we will be able to escape the clutches of this thing.

Every night, my brother is pushed to the brink of his mental tolerance & strength. It is hard to watch & bear. Whatever it is, is hell-bent on forcing him into abject despair. It is a wonder he can still hold up. The amount of mental torture he goes through can only be known to himself.

With his every outburst, my heart leaps in panic & my mind is thrown into turmoil even while I am online  urgently trying to find a suitable job that pays a decent salary.  I can't work, can't write, can't think without worrying & panicking.

With the lack of money & my brother's torment, I am under heavy pressure & stress on all sides to save us both in time.

A job that pays $8-10/hr is not going to buy us a new life in another country. What are we going to do? How am I going to save us??

Every day & night, we don't what's going to happen. I dread the coming of night. I dread going home & wish I could stay outside. Sometimes when we are outside, I ask my brother, "Can we don't go home?".

Whatever it is, is not afraid of temples, churches, crosses or statues of Buddhas. In desperation, I had hoped any one of the 3 churches might offer some protection for 1 or 2 overnights of rest for my brother.

So far, I find that religious places offer no help to a real trouble. We even tried asking for spiritual help at the Burmese Buddhist temple & was given the answer that "We don't have that here. Only prayer.".

When the monk said "We don't have that here.", I repeated it in my mind. Don't have spiritual help in this temple? I thought I heard it wrong & had to ask him to clarify.

How can a temple not offer spiritual help to people in trouble? "Only prayer" implies that prayers are useless against a real problem. Then what is a place of worship for? What is the statue of Buddha for? Just a figure to collect money?

Although I have no expectations from these religious places, it is still a disappointment to hear.

We also went to the only 24 hours Tibetan temple, looking for the Rinpoche. Two weeks ago, the staff said he wasn't in Singapore & would return in mid-December.  Now 2 weeks into December, we went back but the Rinpoche was in retreat with the office staff until Monday. Counter staff asked me to leave my contact number so that the office staff can arrange a timing with the Rinpoche. That was Sunday.  I waited the entire Monday & they never called my phone.

[Update 11:13am Fri 9 Feb: The Rinpoche did get back to us 1 week later. I had actually already given up on receiving any contact. But his aide called us to confirm if we were going to attend the consultation session. Thank you Rinpoche!!]

We urgently need help but other people are not urgent.

All these people cannot even compare to the kind spiritual healer overseas who always replied to my urgent e-mail within some hours, even though he knows I've no money.  [Update 11:15am Fri 9 Feb: I just consulted with him again & he has advised us this morning. So I want to go forward with this. So far, I think we've consulted with him 6 times. He refers to me by my name now instead of "the client".].

I hope in reading this, people will help us rather than make unkind remarks.

Buying From Taobao Direct 2017 Nov 22

Buying direct was surprisingly easy.  I'm just done.  *surprised*

Following Ezbuy's collapse of their Buy4Me service just before 11.11 & even 2 weeks after, I have no choice but to Do It Myself. From other reviews I read, it's very easy. Since I know Chinese, I just did everything on Taobao, no need for the English site or translation.

But their checkout process was a bit cranky just now because I delayed in clicking in the confirmed payment button while I was checking the online reviews to see if I was doing it right.

By the time I clicked the confirmed payment button, it hung.

Asked me to wait 1 minute for card processing & don't close the window. But nothing happened for a long time. I checked my bank account & Alipay account & nothing was deducted. So, it meant the payment didn't go through.

So, I just tried again just now. And it worked smoothly.  I got this page: Success!  Click to enlarge:

Note to self: For all items, I let the China domestic delivery be free or as calculated. I did not change to overseas shipping as items are going to China warehouse first.

I started putting stuff into Taobao cart last night. Tried checking out but wasn't sure which of first two options to click for delivery.  In Chinese, I figured 1st option is Global Direct & 2nd option is Forwarders (they only have Ninjavan). I don't see the list of forwarders that bloggers keep talking about. The last option is to contact seller to arrange (which isn't necessary).

I chickened out to check for more reviews.  But all the items disappeared from cart. Only now, I realize that they have all been moved to "already purchased" section (although not yet purchased).

Earlier today, not knowing that they have been moved, I freshly added the same items to cart, plus 1 more item. After some more messing around with removing the "already purchased" from Taobao & Alipay account (they stashed the items there too since the 2 sites are connected), I was ready to check out at Taobao.

Used Mastercard debit card.  Online, someone already asked & readers confirmed that Singapore debit card can be used on Taobao (through Alipay).

For Alipay, there's no need to separately register first.  After putting stuff into ur Taobao cart, just check out & u'll be shown an Alipay page to create a passsword.  And that's it. I didn't need to enter any personal details.

Although I keyed in a different password for my Alipay account, I only succeeded in getting into Taobao Alipay using my Taobao password.

Now, I'll see how fast it takes for the sellers to send out the items to the Global direct shipping warehouse. It's 32 yuan (around $7) for all these 6 items (actually 12 items because 2 are boxed sets).  Ezbuy would have charged around 1kg or 1.5kg ($3.38- $5.07). So, the difference between Direct & Ezbuy is minimal.

$7 for 12 items is cheap. Average just $0.58 per item shipping. And if considering the entire cost 196.9 yuan ($42.92 deducted from my bank account), each item costs $3.46. Depending on the item, it's cheap or expensive. I bought small earrings & $3.46 each is expensive. But I also bought underwear which is cheap at $3.46.

I didn't manage to find out online which local delivery courier is going to deliver my items after Global Direct shipping. Suppose it's Singpost.

Update: 6.15pm. Oh, my goodness! 2 of the sellers have already dispatched the items in less than an hour while I was typing!! I read one blogger's comment that it's fast (within 2 hours) but I didn't expect it to be this fast. Wow!

9:14pm: One item already received by the courier & on the way to warehouse. So fast.

Let's see the "item flow" "物流" dispatch details for this item:

9:20am 23 Nov Thurs: 3 more sellers not yet dispatch items. The other 2 sellers' items already with courier to the warehouse this early morning & already passed through several receiving points.

Hope the other 3 sellers will send out today.

11:39pm: remaining 3 sellers have sent out today. Now waiting for items to reach warehouse.

10.32am 24 Nov Fri: They are very fast. Already 1 item has arrived at the warehouse. Status at the bottom said "已入库". Already in warehouse. Waiting for the other 4 sellers' items to reach warehouse by today.

Clicking on the details "item flow": 

Sat 25 Nov 3:50pm: Left 1 more item not yet arrive at warehouse.  If I get everything perfect, I'll be ordering again when I've money.  Too bad, the earrings I bought for work.... I already quit the job. :) But I think I can use for the next job or other times when I go out.

Sun 26 Nov9.49a.m.: I've noticed that China mail is very hardworking. They move even on Sundays.

This is the last item, still on the way to warehouse.  So, tomorrow, the lot should be able to fly out to Singapore. I don't know what this seller is using but it's been the slowest out of all the sellers. U can also see that Friday no tracking details & parcel wasn't processed until Sat.

9:15pm Sun: All items have been sent out to Singapore at the same time on a Sunday!! Wow. Fast. Since order till now,  been only  5 days. Let's see how long it takes to reach Singapore. Wonder what it'll look like.

For now, tracking details show items have been sent "overseas".

10:02 a.m. Sat 2 Dec: Yesterday, I missed the delivery at around 5pm. Was out temple-ling for help with bro. Was aware the delivery might be Friday but I couldn't stay home. Terrible situation developed at home in the early hours of the morning. I don't even know what time it was. Bro had trouble with the spiritual disturbance & I had to urgently find spiritual help online. We left the house as soon as we could.  I bet nobody has this reason for missing delivery. 

Anyway,  the courier I discovered that is delivering the Taobao items after global direct is:  Dpex. Yes, the one that many people complained about online.  It was either global direct or Ninja van. As mentioned above, I didn't see any forwarders options when I clicked for forwarding companies. Maybe Taobao changed the options?

When I got home at about 9pm, I didn't see any card at my door. I checked my phone (didn't bring it when we went out) & saw missed calls & missed SMS "Parcel delivery" at 5.09pm from the delivery person.

I SMSed whether the courier could deliver the next day Sat?  No reply.

I checked Taobao "flow of goods" & saw the delivery was marked "signed"!! Well, that's bad news but having experienced the worst from Speedpost a while ago, I didn't panic. Firstly, the parcel cost is low ($42.92). I purposely didn't buy much because I was testing it.

The Dpex tracking however, was left as "out for delivery".  Even though I kept checking since parcel left Taobao, Dpex tracking didn't have any information until 30 Nov 5pm "Arrived Depot".   I stopped checking before then & just estimated the delivery based on other bloggers' posts (4-5 days after leaving China Taobao).

Again, I SMSed, mentioning my reason for not picking up my phone & asked why the parcel was marked as delivered & whether he/she will deliver again tomorrow?  Surprisingly, there was reply.

The person (assuming that I meant the Dpex tracking page) SMSed that he/she wasn't sure why it was marked delivered.  I thanked the person & said I will wait for the delivery tomorrow. But again, received no reply/confirmation on that.

The new update on the Dpex page as at 8.44am is "Awaiting delivery instructions, refer to notification card/DPEXDeliver SMS".  However, I have received neither.  ]

I called all their phone lines & got nothing. Seems nobody is working on Sat, even though their couriers are supposed to deliver till 1pm on Sat.

I don't know if the person SMSed & called before delivery or when already at the door, since I wasn't home. But it was still nice of him/her to have informed. Just that it's strange the person don't/won't reply about whether there'll be re-delivery the next day or whether I should call the office to arrange.

I read online that Dpex will make 2 attempts at delivery, after which there'll  be a $6 charge.  So, I absolutely gotta be home for the next one.  Intend to call them on Mon if it's still not delivered today. I'll wait till 2pm. I don't want to SMS the delivery person again when the person don't/won't reply & I think it might be delivered by someone else.

https://www.dpex.com/information?type=Additional-Charges

Delivery Attempt Fee in Singapore

DPEX Worldwide will make 2 delivery attempts. An additional charge of up to S$6.00 per shipment will apply for the 3rd and subsequent delivery attempts.

11:30am:  I checked the Dpex tracking & it has updated to: "In transit delay - More information required". Slight panic. What  is "more information required"?

Ok, called their main line again & a lady picked up!! Mon 2-6pm arrange re-delivery. 

I was so happy someone actually picked up the phone & my "Hiii..!" sounded warm & friendly. She sounded surprised too on the other side.  I asked if re-delivery could be today (Sat) or Mon? She said, "We can only arrange re-delivery on Mon 2-6pm.".  I said, "Okayyy...! Thankss.".

The system has also been updated to "Delivery/collection instructions confirmed" at 11.29pm.

2:51pm Mon 4 Dec: Thank you Dpex!!  As I guessed, courier came even before 2pm. My psychic is so accurate, I should strike 4D & Toto already!

Courier called my phone. I said, "Yes, come on up! I'm waiting.".  He  said he's already at the door. Wow!!! I hurried out of my room.  Very nice, smiling Indian guy.  I thanked him, asked if the first time was also him. He said "Yes. I knock on the door, nobody home.". I thanked him again.

(Hmm.. I wonder why he didn't reply to my sms to call Dpex to re-arrange delivery when I said I'll wait for him the next day. Refer to above update.).

I got all of my Taobao items!!!  Very pleased with every item.  Total, if I had been home to receive on the first delivery on 1 Dec, it would have taken only.... since Nov 22 upon self-order placement.... 9 days. Confirming another blogger's post about the speed of global direct consolidation.

The flight alone from the China warehouse to Singapore is... Nov 26 Sun sent out... 5 days. 

Overall time, 9 days is longer than if I had ordered under normal conditions from Ezbuy which takes 5-7 days. 

Dpex even better than Speedpost!!!  At least Dpex courier bothered to SMS & call me when delivering. And the call centre was very good & professional in arranging 2nd delivery. And the courier turned up even before 2pm (arranged time frame 2-6pm)!! Very impressed!!

Human Hair In Unagi Rice Man Man Japanese Restaurant @ Duo

11 Oct. Wed around 8.30p.m.

Anyone wants a free-of-charge hair-in-your-rice?  

Just  the 2nd day of opening @ Duo,  a female customer ate 3/4 of her meal only to find a lengthy strand of black human hair embedded in her Unagi rice.

The manager didn't come out to apologise. Just allowed a staff to convey that it's free of charge.

Since the manager's hair is a dyed straw color & he wears a bandana over his head, it must belong to one of the kitchen guys.

The female customer was with another woman. One wonders if they took photos with their phones & posted on Facebook.  Surprisingly, they didn't make a scene despite such an awful lack of hygiene for a Japanese eatery.

My bro added to my report. He said if u have no money to eat, ask for rice with hair. It's free. But if u want no hair, then it's full price.

Carousell SG Makes Life Difficult

3:07pm Thurs 21 Sept

As usual, nothing works well in Singapore.  The selling platforms in Singapore are already practically non-existent.  Even with Carousell, you can see it's already very bad.

Now, it's even worse. Carousell SG gets worse & worse with so-called "improvements".  Investors should stop investing in such a company run by shit.

For every "improvement" they make, other things in the system go nuts. Something like Ezbuy. The saying never goes out of date: If it ain't broke, don't fix it.

There is nothing to fix.  Or at least, fix something without messing up another part of the system.

It's already hard enough as it is trying to sell online. Sellers don't need higher levels of difficulty & worse, payments to a shitty system run by dozens of shitty, smiling people.

What's the latest shit Carousell SG has done?

Now for jobs, services & cars,  you gotta pay $10 at least.  That's a lot of money.


What it means is worse:

1) It'll limit the number of job openings because it's no longer free to list.
2) It'll limit the variety of jobs on offer.
3) If it expands to cover even more categories, it'll mean even more restrictions to list for free. And fewer variety listed.

On the surface, they say it's to prevent "spam" listings. But their horridly tiny keywords search noose has already recently thrown out a lot of spam, resulting in the same shortest-to-the-point titles in order to be on first page. Just a word more & the listing will drop to 2nd or lower pages.  It's crazy.

If you list a fan, you can't put any model number of anything else in the title. The longer your title, the lower it will fall. It will turn up only if someone specifically hits words in your long title.

Previously, all the listing titles in your "store" must be unique. Now you can have the same one-word titles for different items. And the Carousell search function will list many items with the same one or two words title.

It's crazy & stupid. Reflects the mind/s behind Carousell. So stupid.  If you've been selling there, you'll know what I mean.

With this latest "improvement", you can now add words to your listing title without it falling down the page. Apparently, the system is now going by latest timing. If it was listed 5 secs ago, it'll stay #1 on first page. Until... I don't know when. Probably fall down the pages until you either pay their Neopet coins or re-list for free.

All these means = More effort. And it's not as if there's a huge load of buyers on Carousell. I don't know how they look at their traffic but it's a desert.  U can list something & they can have all the "improvements" to their system, but nobody is buying.


[Nobody is buying: I listed an item that was supposedly "liked" by plenty of people before I got the stock. When I actually got the stock & listed it at the same price that they liked, suddenly I can't sell it at all even after 1 month of listing! Another item, I have 61 likes & only 1 person actually paid to order it. Another item has 82 likes & still no buyers. Another item 68 likes & again no buyers.]


Why do such "companies" always cause people problems?

Before this, it was problems with their image uploader. It was working fine before. If anything has to be improved, they should increase the number of images to 5.  Currently 4 images are too few.

But instead, they added extra steps to the whole image loader. It has become extra difficult to post listings! And instead of 4 images, I can only post 3. Because they messed up the system, now everytime select 4 images, must delete 1, then I am allowed to select their stupid categories.

And can't even shrink pics anymore!

Previously,  the uploader could even shrink the pics to fit simply by scrolling my mouse. Even the largest size could fit perfectly. Then it's done. 4 pics up fast in just 1 step.

And then: they added a stupid thing called "Bump".  Now you gotta pay to get your listing updated on their search engine pages.  So-called "coins".  They think it's like Neopets. So stupid & childish. Previously, listings automatically get bumped when anyone "likes" your item.

So, instead of improving, Carousell has become worse. And still sellers gotta use it because there're no other workable options selling online.  Gumtree & Ebay SG are shit.

In the US, if you watch Youtube, you can see plenty of "pickers" who make a lot of money getting their "stock & supplies" for free or almost free. They sell on their Ebay & make a thriving living by it.

What's in Singapore? Nothing.  Only educated, ignorant people will say that Singapore is good. Such people are Chinese-educated or foreigners (those shit-heads who wear T-shirts saying "I Love SG".).

Singapore is just a shitty country. If you have money, just get out, find a better place & enjoy there. No wonder so many people left. Those who stay are plenty of uneducated people & foreigners.

My brother & I should have been born in a better country with better opportunities, no NS, no CPF. We don't belong in this shitty Singapore with small-minded, crazy people who keep fucking to get kids.

Spirit Portal Wind Breeze?

10.10am Wed.   Bro just left.  I'm already awake in bed but immediately, there's this strange flapping sound again. As if there's wind outside. Previously, I thought it really was wind or breeze but I checked once before & the air was still. This is the 2nd time.  It wasn't flapping earlier (I wake a few times during the night & early morning). Only right after bro left.

Above my door is a ventilation rectangle.  When bro started burning mosquito coils some time back to combat that "thing", I covered that rectangle with a sheet of cut white mahjong paper to prevent the smoke from coming into my room.

It's just taped to the upper door frame so if there's breeze from the balcony or if the bedroom door is open & I pass underneath, it will flap due to air current.

But I began noticing that when my door is closed & I'm trying to sleep in bed, it would flap quite irritatingly. Assuming that it's the damn balcony wind, I would ignore it.  Once it flapped so bad, I checked & it was the balcony wind because of the coming rain. When I closed the balcony door, it stopped flapping.

But... I began noticing that it flapped even when everything is still. Like this morning.

Because of the loud flap flap sound, I couldn't sleep any longer. So, I got out of bed, switched off my fan & went outside my door to check. I shut the door. There was no breeze from the balcony because the windchimes are not moving. Bro's fan is off.  I looked at the ventilation rectangle outside & waited. It didn't flap.

Some days ago, I had asked bro to tape it down properly to the door frame.

I opened a side of the kitchen window & went to the bathroom. Then came out & closed back that side of the window. And turned back on the fan in my bedroom thinking that perhaps it was what was causing the paper to flap. Closed back the door the same way, while I stood outside.

Nothing. It didn't flap. The air was still quiet. Windchimes were not moving in the balcony.

I went into my bedroom & sat on the bed with the door closed. Nothing.

Strange.

These are the "small" things that you will tend to dismiss as just "the wind" or "the breeze" or "it so happened". But it's just weird. Previously when it happened at night, I found the excuse (perhaps) to be the air current from the slit under his closed door due to bro's fan in his room while he was sleeping.  But frankly, I felt no breeze or wind that was flapping my paper so badly.   The top of his door is also covered by thick vanguard sheet that does not flap.

My idea is that there is a spirit portal somewhere between our rooms. It's crazy, but not impossible. Our house is crazy. It's not normal because of our father's stupidity that brought in a crazy entity many years ago. If I had money, of course I would move out immediately.

Over the years, there's been weird shit that I dismissed because of "logic" & "reason". Some months ago, I found many spirit portals in our apartment. Some in mid-air. 

Dementia Alzheimer's & Psychic Ability

11:36pm 10 Sept Sun 

I was looking up the connection between Dementia & Psychic Ability because according to a psychic surgeon, dad has dementia. A  few years back,  I already suspected that dad might be senile, but since he still seemed to talk rationally, I thought it might not be.

What I mean to find is what happens when a psychic goes crazy with his abilities.   Like Superman who has gone nuts. Is that possible?

For my bro's sanity,  I wonder if we should visit dad & talk to him? I know his concern was that he didn't leave much money for us & he worries it is not enough. I can't believe he cares only for himself & I think it's his dementia & that ghost (or whatever) he worships that has made him like this.


What is the solution to our problem? What is the answer to the question?  Bro thinks that entity inside him may have deceived the psychic surgeon & that in fact, the entity never left. And that dad has no dementia. "That thing is very cunning. It's just a trick to make you soft." said Bro. "Once you fall into the trap, finish.". 

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http://www.planetwavesweekly.com/parallel/articles/alzheimer.html

In childhood, we come into the world empty of earthly knowledge. Gradually, we build for ourselves an identity, created out of the experiences and memories of our ongoing lives, and it is these experiences and memories that tie us to the world. But eventually, it becomes time to leave again. Many aging adults experience a second childhood, which we now call dementia. And as the trappings of life slowly drop away with age -- memory, personality, language, even recognition of self -- the person is slowly and inexorably freed from the bonds of earthly existence. Eventually, they are delivered to a dimension beyond space and time that we, the young and vibrant, can only glimpse through the visions of madmen and, if we're lucky, our elders.

It's a nice, comforting & warm way of explaining it. A more accepting way about a merciless process.

Although the following quote has nothing to do with Alzheimer's disease, it sums up for me what is perhaps the greatest lesson of this strange odyssey I find myself on:

"The Pearl of Great Price, The Holy Grail, the Vision of God, Nirvana, Valhalla, Heaven, or Salvation, call it what you will, it will not be found until the individual forgets who they are, and what they are looking for. Then they shall find it. " (21)

Meaning? A person has got to lose his marbles & Self in order to see Heaven? What's the point? Frankly, I don't need to find such Holy Grail. You can keep it.

http://neuroscienceandpsi.blogspot.sg/2013/04/dementia-psi.html

Joen Fagan, PhD is a psychologist with a great deal of experience in working with people with dementia and their caregivers.  He is currently working on a book with Jean Harsch, MSW, which proposes that “it is possible that there are spiritual dimensions to dementia and that being sensitive to these may help a little” with the incredibly difficult task of caring for someone with dementia.

In a phone interview, Fagan reported an instance of clairvoyance involving his partner Irma that had occurred when she had had Lewy body dementia for seven years.  At that point, she was bedridden, prone to hallucinations and delusions, and only somewhat able to talk coherently.  Fagan was in another room from Irma, with a connecting hallway in between, about 28 feet away, with his back to her, but just visible to her.  He was writing a check to one of their certified nursing assistants.  They were not speaking.

As he handed the check to the assistant, Irma called out clearly, “That check is wrong!”  Fagan and the assistant were stunned.  It’s worth noting that Irma had hated anything to do with numbers her whole life and had never been the check-writer in the family.  Fagan re-did his math, and found that he had, indeed, calculated the payment wrong!

http://new-age-spirituality.com/wordpress/content/3687

I worked in a memory care center. At times strange happenings would arise. A sort of clarity would come through. residents would make comments to me that fit into my current affairs for which they had no way of knowing. It was very strange to have experienced this , but I believe there is a type of connection somehow.

日本語小説プレビューの抜粋

2:20pm 7 Sept Thurs

[著者からの注：著作権 2017。英語の原文。 私は2009年に日本を訪れた後、これを何年も書き続けようと努力してきました。いつそれが英語で出版されるのか分かりません。 それは非常に遅く、孤独な書き込みになります。 私はそれを少し日本語に翻訳することに抵抗することはできません。 ほんの少し。 私は日本をもう一度見たいと思う。 代わりに私はこれを日本に書きます。 まだ未完成です。 私はまだ英語でそれを書いて改訂しています。 私はまだ英語で私の章の名前を付けていません。 しかしここでは、日本の読者のための章を追加します。

あなたがそれを好きであれば教えてください。 私は翻訳機をオンラインで使用していますが、私は以前にそれをテストしており、日本人はそれがうまく翻訳されていると言います。私はタイトルを持っていますが、まだリリースしません。私は日本語で少しの作品をリリースするのが楽しいと思った。私はいつも自分の仕事の英語盗難を心配しているので、日本語に翻訳する方が安全かもしれないと感じています。 また、それを見ることは面白く面白いでしょう。 さて、どこで翻訳を始めるのですか...？]

Copyright 2017. 書いた： Nakosuori

ベルサイユ事件に触発された。 2009年には鶴ヶ城を訪れ、白石城に足を踏み入れる。 弘前城をベースとした壁画。 [私の英語の仕事の詳細はいくつかありますが、ここでは日本語ではありません。]

第1章

ちょうど梅の果実が収穫された直後、幸福の年、狐の日、フェニックス星座の時にちょうど私が10階の2つのサンデッキに沿って司令官と一緒に測量していた時、 イベント、あるいは2つのイベントが発生したとき。

いつものように、彼の手で私の指揮官は、彼が反対側の領域に直面して立っていたとして、早朝の光の中で堂々と見えた。 城の近所を日常的に航空機で検査していたのと同じように、彼の視線はそれらの土地から逃れなかった。

考えてみると、夏の空気は雲が白くて青くて軽くて涼しく、見た目に近いところに触れることができました。 それは良い夏、夏の太陽の下のすべての良い収穫でした。 昨年よりも良いこともありました。

私の司令官の右に立って、汗をかく耳にぴったりとした鮮明で息を吹きながら、私の主人の右の目の下に歪みが見えました。 努力のせいではなかった。 私の主は十分な休息を取っていなかった。 後で、これは非難されることはできませんでした。

朝の練習のために10階をレースした後、私たちはワサダの土地に立ち向かい、彼らを見渡すように彼らを見渡しました。 平和はもう一年続いたが、3年の停戦の早期休暇を探していた和田田と一軒家は、ついに皇帝の令状に乗っていたという噂があった。

私の心は思考に沈んだ。 3年の平和はすぐに終わらなかった。

過去10日間、私たちは奇妙な報告を受けています。奇妙な服装をした人がセリトリーを通過し、ゲートを塞いで通路に沿って消えていく。それの横の未知の項目を見るために塩に達する調理家は消える。ペインティングは、絵画や壁がなくなる前に、メインホールの存在していない壁には見られなかった。

歴史的には、霊の目撃は文書化されているが、これは同時に多くのものがそうではない。

これがワサダの作品であれば、テツェン・ジンギの主人公のようではなかった。よりオープンで直接的な方法を好む者は、そのように精巧に設計された教え方を踏むことの手間を経ないだろう。

6泊前は... ...私はそれを何と呼ぶべきかわかりません...アーチャーの銀色の弓の星座で私の主の部屋から急いで私たちを呼んでいたので、私たちはまだ困惑していました。

私の主人の習慣と同じように、私は彼の好きな3つの茶を、甘い山の桜の涙で彼の部屋で味わっていました。そこでは、茶室の茶室で茶道の儀式を観察するのではなく、 最近まで兵器保管に転用されていた。

私の側では、軽く香りの炭の火鉢の上にあるガラス製のフラスコの温泉暖かい、準備が整いました。 私の主によって特別に委託された木炭は、無公害であり、あらゆる種類の有用で無用なものを作った関東の男性からのものでした。 私の主の命令によれば、その人は何かを非常によく作ってくれました。他のどのものよりも少なくて明るいろうそくの光もそうでした。    

水が臨界温度に達する直前に、私はフラスコを持ち上げ、その透明な噴出口に茶葉の唇の上に米粒の高さを浮かべ、最初に2つの穀粒を右に、次に左に、そして再び戻しながら 実際には土鍋のボウルだったものの洗練された側面を流れ落ちる滑らかな小枝。

輸液では、3つの茶のブレンドが開花し、展開した人魚の尾のように薄く半透明になり、絶妙な香りで部屋を満たしました。

葉が瞑想的なプールに溶けていくと、Itsuniの蜂蜜が3滴落ち、それぞれハートビートの半分の思い通りの連続で落ちるようになり、淡い紅色の黄色、半透明の金色、そして乳白色の色に変わった。 

私の主が部屋のろうそくの灯りに対して書類を熟読したときに、時々薄く切ったり、脇に置いたりして、私の主が静かに許してくれたように、 風味が増します。

その皿に泡立て器を置いて、完成したドリンクをプレゼントしました。今度は、ろうそくの光を反射する純粋で無色の透明感と、悪魔を追い払うような美味しい、回復力のある香りでぼやけています。

私の主の右手には、インク池から引き出されたインクブラシが、ブランクのすぐ横の原稿セットへの返信の準備として、彼の前に置かれた白紙に達する直前の高さで指先で持ち上げられました。

それから、メッセンジャーの激しい足音が廊下を急いで、彼の敬意を表している彼の歯車のすべての音の中で、ちょうど外に死んでしまった。

白紙から目をゆっくりとスライドさせて、頭の中をほとんど気づかずに、私の主は、シルクスクリーンのドアの裏側にある影の茂み、空中に浮かんだインクの筆に、暗い視線を向けました。

中断に変わって、私はボウルを私の胸に降ろしました。 "司令官への報告：艦長梅雨、第二南門にあなたの存在を正直に要請する。"

これは、キャプテンが以前にこのようなことを一度も尋ねたことのないように、最も興味深いものでした。 実際に、大尉は私達のランクに加わる前に彼の業績にもかかわらず、むしろ自分自身にとどまった。 何年もの間、彼はここにいましたが、彼は一度だけ言いましたが、一度私の主と話しました。そして、それは、最初に私たちに到着したときにサウスゲートの艦長として喜んで喜んでくれるかどうか尋ねられたときに "はい" 城。 彼はお勧めになった。

私の手のひらに抱かれたお茶の暖かさは、その完璧さがゆっくりと滑り落ちるのを感じました。 それにもかかわらず、義務が呼び出された。 間違った時間に、特に完璧なものが出現しようとしているときには、いつも呼びかけているようです。

私の主の眉は、彼の情報を考えたときにひっくり返りました。

「精巧」 私の主は言った。
 
男は、不安定な躊躇のように思われたが、相手側でギアがわずかにシフトしていると、その男は答えた。 "キャプテンは私の主がそれを自分のために見たいと思う。

深く吸入して放出を強制すると、私の主は池の脇にインク筆を置き、テーブルから浮き上がった。 彼はすでにフルギアだったし、まれに彼はなかった。    

私が握ったお茶の退屈な完璧を見越して、私の主は私の方に歩き、右手でボウルを取って曲がって、まっすぐに頭をすくめ、それを私に戻してドアに向かって滑り込ませて開いた スクリーン。

司令官を見て、ナイトガードはバラバラになり、一緒に始まりました。

ボウルをトレイのそばに置いて、私もバラして、少しずつそれぞれの息を止めて2つのろうそく灯を嗅ぎ取った。 

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Does the Christian God Exist Independently of Belief?

2:18am 4 Sept Mon

At the moment at laptop. Same as previous nights, start heavy drowsy soon after bro sleeps. Quartz does not help.

This time, started at 1.30am. Very oppressive stuffy drowsy.

Bro's new theory tonight, is that the ghosts never left with the statues. The statues went but they stayed. I can find no hole in the theory. With that, he went to bed.

1.30am just now, very heavy drowsy. Top of head, frontal area heaviness. Headache. Almost unable to think anymore. Sitting on the edge of my bed with big wooden board folded table underneath (supposed to stop drowsiness but doesn't seem to be working so far).

Stopped work. Just a thought: I used my index finger, wrote the sign of the Cross in the air. Big cross. Horizontal line crossed with long down stroke. Made each sign all around my sitting position. Plus over the top of my head to form a ceiling.

So, the signs became like a protective shield with a roof, was my thought. And I imagined it glowing golden as I wrote each one in the air.

Then I turned back to my laptop. Strangely, it worked. No more drowsiness. Lifted. Cleared up enough to think, although not perfect. Slight headache less than before.

Odd. Father is not Christian. If he sent these ghosts, why would making the cross work? Also, I am not religious. And I sneer at Christians & religion. So why would it work for me? Also, I have been thinking that there are no ghosts in my room, just mind projection from evil father.  If father is not Christian & I am not religious... then what is responding to the sign of the cross if not actual presence of ghosts?

I sense no presence in my room. What is responding to the Cross if not ghosts?

After the first time, the clear-up feeling stayed for a while. Then crept back in, trying to come back to my head.

So I did the Cross again 2nd time. It has held up till now. Not perfect, still a little heaviness on top of my head, but clear enough to think & type this.

Weird. Does God exist? If it does, why is nothing done to get rid of these pests that ruin & disturb human lives?

Something responded to the sign of the Cross. Even God does not exist, it exists for whatever has responded. Therefore it works.

Does doubting whether God exists destroy the protection? Does not seem to.  Apparently, my lack of religious belief does not affect it. It still works. Odd. Why?

I walked away to drink from the cup at my bedside, wondering if by walking out of the imaginary  "shield"  I'm no longer under its protection. Upon returning to sit at my laptop, start to become not so good. Heavy weight starts coming back to top of my head. Clears up short while, then it starts again.

A matter of expectation? Expect it not to work when step out & it conforms to the thought?

11:38am Mon 4 Sept.
In the light of the morning, thoughts are clearer. Think better. I recall previously when bro said he was drowsy, he opened photos/images of Jesus Christ in Google images on my laptop. He said straightaway cleared up.

Although I wasn't thinking of this last night, it probably influenced my thought to do the sign of the Cross. Some time ago before bro did the Google images, I held Black Tourmaline in my hand & crossed the air & didn't seem to work.

Oddly, circling the air at the ceiling with my finger clears up the fog, but only while doing it. After stop, it comes back.

What is odd is that I don't sense any presence. If it's a ghost, it's  a Christian ghost. If it's a Christian, then its presence proves that there is in fact, no God. If there was a god, what is this Christian ghost doing here? Obviously, it feared God & was a follower. So, why didn't it go to the realm that it believed in? Or why didn't God remove it?

Excuses shouldn't be created for God to exist. Observe & think. And reach conclusions. What is so bad about a non-existent God? Other animals live without temples & churches. They are more practical realists than humans.

Is Reincarnation An Illusion? Book Preview Online

Mon 12:01pm
28 Aug.

Just posting a short post here with some thoughts. Busy as usual. But ever since accidentally coming across "remote depossession" while reading up online for psychic help... I've been interested & thinking of it. Very interesting.... I want to say "concept" but in my case & what I have been "seeing", I refrain from calling it a "concept".  

To understand what the shit is going on in my case, I've had to read up the moment I get out of bed. I don't think any help from a psychic is coming soon & I've to help ourselves.

False memory syndrome applies in our situation so reading it has helped to open my mind in understanding what I've been observing in my own father.

I agree with this spirit or ghost in the below excerpt. Wise advice. There is only 1 life. The present one. If you blow it, there is no next one where you'll do it  "properly". Do it properly now.

Besides, even if you come back, you are not "you" in your present form with your present state of mind. So, there is no point in saying "in my next life".  If you want to be president, do it now. If still physically possible, regardless of age. Don't say "next life".

In another excerpt by another author, reading about the session in remote depossession was also fascinating. "Fascinating" "blow your mind" "never thought of it" "wow". 

"Little is added in a second trial". I find this to be very correct. Little is gained. Means there is no use in coming back for another round. Of what? Of suffering the same things. Doing the same things. Whatever you do, it is the same thing whether writer, musician, scientist.   Birth, mistakes & death.  It is better never coming back.

What the title is saying is that so-called "past life" or "reincarnation" recall might not be coming from the person under hypnosis, but from the memories of the ghosts or spirits that are inside or "latched" onto this person. So, one moment it is the memory of having lived & died during the Crusades; next moment, a French man stabbed along the street, or someone who was abused etc...

Enlightenment for me. Because I never understood why people have this idea of reincarnation. This spirit talks more sense than any religious crap.

At the "pool" part, I was thinking what about those Tibetan kids who can remember exactly their temples etc..?  Following the below, it means these kids have an original "new" soul that has been surplanted (hijacked) by the old soul of the temple abbot. Possession. 

No wonder when I first read of Tibetan kids being able to recall precisely everything, I felt there was something wrong.

Psychics in Singapore

Psychics in Singapore should stop calling themselves psychics. Frauds. When given a real problem, they run. Or charge $800 for cleansing which anyone can do.

3 names: Gypsy. Adrian. Sharan. In these 4 months, I know more about paranormal shit than they. Call themselves psychic? Read only "love" Tarot? Only appear in Youtube for publicity?

I am psychic. I can tell just from a photo whether a person's face shows a fraud. Contacting all 3 has only confirmed it. But I don't go around publicizing that I'm "psychic" & then cannot help real cases.

People really need help. Such psychics shouldn't pretend to be psychics. I really need help to solve a real problem. But they just coldly walk away. Or worse, dodge the question for help, ask a question out of curiosity & then don't even reply.

I ask for help. Just 1 word: Help.

Yet it's so impossible to find in Singapore. It's absurd. Goes to show what kind of people are here. Psychics? Just horrid people pretending to be psychics.